Sunday, January 31, 2010

Wow it has been months again hasn't it.
I don't have my pictures right now, but thought I would take a minute to post some thoughts

The Lord doesn't always have the same thing in mind for us that we have for ourselves.
And we don't always have the same desire for ourselves as he sometimes does.

Calls for us to serve come in many shapes and sizes. Sometimes we are happy and excited, sometimes we knew what we were going to be asked to do. Sometimes however, before we get a call, we are adiment that we don't want to work where we know we are going to be called and we say things like, "if you are going to call me work in the Primary, don't bother, I will just have to say no." Then they ask you to work in Primary as a teacher for a certain class and you can just feel the spirit flowing through you and you can't wait for your new calling to begin. You have a most excellent journey for multiple years working with those awesome little ones.

Then the time comes for a change. You don't get the call to work where you feel like you were supposed to be called. The call you get you accept, but still don't feel settled with it. You continue to try to make it fit, but still it feels unsettled. Then a new call comes. You think, ok, here comes the call I was supposed to get.
Oh, just jokin, again, not the call you wanted or expected. Counselor in the RS. Really, no prior feelings for this call. You accept, the spirit still isn't flowing.
Frustration sets in. Sadness, Why me, why this call, why now. Not that the call is bad, it just isn't where you felt the tug to be working.
Prayers, temple attendance, fasting, blessings, sickness, death. How mysterious are God's ways.
Presidents must leave town, Lovely old sisters finally get to move on to the next life and what lovely opportunities to serve come your way. The confirmation comes and you are able to be at peace and find joy in your new call.
I love the gospel of Jesus Christ. I love my Heavenly Father and I am so thankful for his love and patience with me.